greetings to all -
It's been a long time since i've been on here. I have finally been diagnosed with an absorbtion disorder. Unfortunately it has taken a very long time to get this diagnosis, and my body is completely worn out. All my vit levels are severly low, and i'm taking liquid supplements to build myself back up. There could be many reason for the disorder, but we are hoping that mine is related mainly to scar tissue building up in the abdomen and blocking off the body's ability to absorb vitamins and nutrients from food I eat. I will be seeing 2 last surgeons, and then having surgery mid- feb. I will have 3 surgeons working on me at the same time, their goal is to remove all that is causing problems, remove scar tissue, and placing organs etc.. back into their right place all while causing little damage as possible. I have been warned that given my present physical state just going under will be taking a very big risk, and it will be a complicated surgery due to the damage i suffered from abuse as a very small child. As my doctor told me, surgery on me is risky because nothing is where it should be. Because my body has been starving for quite awhile it was breaking down my muscles etc.. for energy and has weakend the muscles surrounding my heart. Recovery is an issue also, because having such low vitamin levels could impact my bodies ability to heal.
I've tried to give enough details without being to long - but i have been told by the surgeon all things put together this is going to be a very risky surgery, and he has been blunt that death is a possibility. But i have no other option in order to fix the problem.
I have 2 children ages 11 and 14 now. Though my soul is safe, I pray that Gods will for me is complete healing , so that i can be there for my children for a long time to come.
I ask that you pray for the Doctors who will be operating on me, that their hands will be calm and guided by God. I ask that you pray for me, that my body will have the strength to endure from start to finish, and that recovery will be quick and without problems. And i especially ask that you pray for my family - Shawn my husband, my daughter jamee 11 and my son zack 14-- that God will be with them , and my extended family.
Because there is so much going against this such as human weakness, doubt, fear, -- I believe by Gods hands is the only way it will go right.
I will post the exact date and time of surgery as soon as i know it. I myself have put it in Gods hands, and now i reach out to my brothers and sisters that have been there for me all the years , and to the many new people i'm sure have joined in my abscense for your prayers.
Any messages of encouragement, or anything that can help keep my faith strong would be greatly appreciated, as this is my ownly source of connection with other believers.
with much gratitude, and sincere thanks,
Many blessings
Angel ( Tamara Black )
_________________ ''The evolving soul is not made divine by what it does, but by what it strives to do"
The Urantia Book
'Laus Deo"
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