Q: I'm terribly hungry for the truth and I believe like a child. But I am having a hard time accepting that I was an ape. Can you please help me understand? And, can you please help me understand a bit more about the adjutant mind spirits and their relation to us mortals?
A: It is such a blessing to be a truth-seeker...and approaching Truth with the innocence of a child is a great quality. Of course, when we hear something that does not resonate with our inner self, we are naturally curious. Thinking that you were once an ape is not a pleasant thought, and so I can understand your concern.
The truth is that we are not directly descended from the apes. Mankind was never an ape. He did spring from a Primate tribe (meaning the direct line of ancestry to mankind). But that tribe went on to distinguish itself as humanity, while the apes never progressed. This passage may ease your mind:
62:3.12 ...man and the ape are related only in that they sprang from the mid-mammals, a tribe in which there occurred the contemporaneous birth and subsequent segregation of two pairs of twins: the inferior pair destined to produce the modern types of monkey, baboon, chimpanzee, and gorilla; the superior pair destined to continue the line of ascent which evolved into man himself.
Modern man and the simians did spring from the same tribe and species but not from the same parents. Man’s ancestors are descended from the superior strains of the selected remnant of this mid-mammal tribe, whereas the modern simians (excepting certain pre-existent types of lemurs, gibbons, apes, and other monkeylike creatures) are the descendants of the most inferior couple of this mid-mammal group, a couple who only survived by hiding themselves in a subterranean food-storage retreat for more than two weeks during the last fierce battle of their tribe, emerging only after the hostilities were well over.
This is taken from a section called: The Mid-Mammals and I suggest that you read it carefully to see the differences in thee two tribes for yourself.
As for the Adjutant Mind Spirits: the appearance of these mind spirits is a vital development in the evolution of life on a planet such as ours. These seven spirits are of origin in our local Mother Spirit, and they are activated with the appearance of the first life-form. As life develops and becomes ever more complex, the higher mind spirits are activated, until the development of creatures who have the capacity for the adjutants of worship and wisdom, the last two mind spirits. The possession of these last two mind spirits forever sets man apart from mere animal existence, and permanently connects that mind to the Mother Spirit's mind circuit. Since Andon and Fonta, all mortals are now activated by these seven mind spirits by the time of the arrival of the Thought Adjuster (about age 5), and far removed from our long-ago animal origins.
Read more about the Mind Spirits
The first human beings on our planet were Andon and Fonta, and when these last mind spirits were activated there was great rejoicing in the celestial realms because this signified that the first true humans had finally appeared on earth. And this was nearly 1 million years ago.
From The Urantia Book,
62:6.5 Imagine our joy one day—the twins were about ten years old—when the spirit of worship made its first contact with the mind of the female twin and shortly thereafter with the male. We knew that something closely akin to human mind was approaching culmination; and when, about a year later, they finally resolved, as a result of meditative thought and purposeful decision, to flee from home and journey north, then did the spirit of wisdom begin to function on Urantia and in these two now recognized human minds.
There was an immediate and new order of mobilization of the seven adjutant mind-spirits. We were alive with expectation; we realized that the long-waited-for hour was approaching; we knew we were upon the threshold of the realization of our protracted effort to evolve will creatures on Urantia.
Again, the appearance of all seven mind spirits in these two ancestors of humanity marked a distinct improvement, and a further-and permanent-separation between man and animal. By the time that Andon and Fonta were living, the evolution of man past his primate origins had been progressing for more than 20, 000 years, so you can see that mankind is actually quite far removed from any significant connection to the primates, except for the fact of origin; and man has no connection to the simians, from whence the apes sprang.See Evolution of Human Mind for more information about this topic. That whole paper (Paper 62) is a good read, and very informative.